The pledge

When I was around 4-5 I realized I felt like my parent's parent. My priorities were so clear, I had to protect them no matter what since they were so young.
Seems like a strange thing to think when you are 4-5, but I think what I meant was that to me they seemed to be younger souls.
I have always resisted being controlled in any way, fiercly resisted it! Raising me was no easy task, I'm sure, but the reason I wouldn't be told what to do, what was right and what was wrong, was because I already knew! Better than the  poor people who strived to raise me!
I was never that kid who had to be told not to burn flies with a magnifying glass, not to pull the legs off of spiders and such. It was never in me to hurt a living thing, especially not an animal!
My values have changed very little since I was a child. I still know right from wrong, good from evil, and most importantly, I choose good!
This doesn't mean that I've been a saint all my life, oh no no no.... I've had my rebellious stage when I drank and got into fights and was about as wild and unruly as anyone could be. I had tons of aggression I had to get out, and I did, on anyone that wasn't my friend basically.
But that was sort of a tunnel I had to get through to arrive on the other side. They were experiences I needed, puzzle pieces.
Now I'm here. I'm me. And as hard as that can be at times, it also totally rocks!
I love who I am and I'm proud to be me!

I feel somehow that I took a pledge before I was born.
Some people believe we all sign a contract before we enter this earthly realm, and I'm pretty sure I did.
It has always been so clear to me what I'm supposed to do here. I'm supposed to be doing good.
Sounds lame? Well, I don't mean that I'm supposed to sit on a meadow and play the lute and think happy thoughts! I'm me, the fierce scorpio! I have passion in everything I do! I'm hotheaded and intense and can be quite scary when I want to be. I have ridiculous integrity. Oh, and I'm freakishly strong.
So there must be a reason for that? I must have been made in the exact way I was to be able to do the things I was supposed to do, right?
I just don't believe in coincidences too much.

I'm no leader. But I'm DEFINITELY not a follower either.
I'm a loner. A grumpy, but good hearted loner who wants to help, almost no matter how much it will cost me.
That, I believe, is what I'm supposed to do. Help, and possibly share some puzzle pieces along the way.
I'm not expecting to be praised in any way. My ways are to weird for most people to even see what I'm about, to see ME, but as long as someone is helped, it is all worth it!