Binaural beats

This is one thing I was really hoping would work on me...
Changing your brainwaves and altering your consciousness without the use of drugs.
For weeks now I have been trying. I have listened to the free binaurals available on youtube, like this one:
http://youtu.be/MfDm9ZwJXrY
I've been hoping to feel more uplifted and in some ways I have. I mean, there are some effects, but probably not what other people can get.

From what I can understand about binaural beats, you're not supposed to jump around and listen to different frequencies, so I've been sticking with the delta and theta ones.
I've narrowed it down to 4-5 that I like and that seems to have some effect. Two that are supposed to be helpful with sleep, and they do make me yawn. That may be because of my expectations, but in all honesty, my expectations have really not been set very high. I'm giving this an honest chance for a few months, that's all.
The anti-depressant one and the healing ones make me feel calmer. I like them.

Most of the time nothing in particular happens, but some binaurals seem to kick in 24 hours or so after I've listened to them. Twice that's happened now. One was a marijuana simulation. It was supposed to turn your brainwaves into those a person smoking pot has.
Nothing happened on the first day. Listened to it again the second day and nada. But on the third night I suddenly felt very strange. stoned, I would say, even though I've never been stoned. I listened to the binaural again and I was definitely feeling it that time!
Tried it the next night too but then it was the same as the first two nights.
The other was one frequency that was supposed to "make girls go bonkers", in a sexual way of course.
Scoffing, I felt the need to debunk this, so I listened to it. As I expected, nothing happened.
Until tonight that is.
I was innocently taking a walk when all of a sudden I got hit with this very unexpected heavy feeling of desire. At first I tried to just shake it off, since I'm a scorpio I'm quite prone to such feelings anyway.... But usually something has happened that has triggered that impulse. This time it just hit me from out of the dark night, and it was 24 hours after I listened to that stupid binaural...

Well, I'm going to focus only on these relaxing, healing ones from now on.
You're supposed to do it every day for 30 days I've read, so I'm going to keep going for a while longer!

New perspectives

You stand in the middle of a maze of hedges. All you can see is the closest opening so you go there.
Up in a tree next to the maze someone sits and has a completely different perspective of the maze you're in. Maybe the opening you go for is only going to lead you deeper into this maze. You don't know this, but the guy in the tree does.
Such a small change of perspective can have such an impact on a situation.

This is why we must never stop trying new things, get to know new people.
It can be as simple as listening to a type of music you don't normally listen to.

Go climb a hill! :D

Strange sounds again...

Just a little added info and a thought.
List of many, many of these strange sounds, all except one are from 2012:
http://paranormal.about.com/od/earthmysteries/tp/Strange-Sounds-From-All-Over-The-World.htm

Thought: It just hit me, that the one from Borneo included in the list above, is the ONLY one I've ever heard that comes from the southern hemisphere...
Why?

Black Eyed Kids

Time to get down to business.
BEK's, for lack of a better name have rattled the very core of me since the first time I heard about them.
These are (usually) kids, around 8-15 years old, which seem to seek people out and ask to be allowed entry into their homes, or in at least one case, car.
The scary thing about these kids is not so much their general appearance, but their demeanor. And, of course, their completely black eyes. No whites, no shine. Like two black holes...
People having these encounters often talk about experiencing a feeling of dread, primal fear.

When reading these stories I often notice how unattentive people are. Many want to dismiss these stories for reasons that make no sense at all if you actually read it.
"Some people have black eyes". Sure, some have next to black irises, but the sclera, the white of the eye, would not also be black then.
"There are sclera lenses these days that some kids and people with certain medical conditions are using" True. Expensive sclera lenses exist, I have seen pictures of them, but they are shiny, not matte. Not like black holes that absorb all light.

Also, in some of the cases, the eyes are not black the entire time. Sometimes they start off looking normal, only to go into "evil mode" at a certain time.

I have no idea what these things are. I've read all kinds of debates on the subject, heard all sorts of theories, but even with all those parts I still don't have enough to piece it together.

These are some of the many, many encounters with BEK's, as well as some articles debating the subject:

http://mysteriousuniverse.org/2012/01/smiles-of-the-dangerous-children/#more-9394

http://mysteriousuniverse.org/2011/04/black-eyed-kids-insidious-threat-or-myth-in-the-making/

http://www.ghosttheory.com/2010/03/15/the-strange-creepy-phenomena-black-eyed-kids

http://www.ghosttheory.com/?s=black+eyed+kids

http://www.paramyst.com/blackeyedkids.html

http://paranormal.about.com/od/demonsandexorcism/a/marine-black-eyed-kids.htm

http://paranormal.about.com/library/blstory_july06_10.htm

For even more stories, just google "Black eyed kids"

So, since I don't know what these things are, I would advice distance.
Whether you believe or not, don't ever, EVER invite any strange kids in who knock on your door late at night...

More sounds and Project Bluebeam

OK.... The sounds are really starting to get to me...
What the heck are they?
They scare me, but at the same time I keep the conspiracy theory Project Bluebeam in mind.
Supposedly, Project Bluebeam is an attemt on a HUGE scale by the New World Order to take over the world and have the antichrist rule it. In short. More information here:
http://bardofely.hubpages.com/hub/Is-Project-Bluebeam-the-Grand-Deception
So, if they want us to believe an alien invasion/ the rapture is near, they are doing a very good job at it!
Listen to the latest sounds:
http://youtu.be/gtLNmdZTf_g

If Bluebeam is real, that could explain a lot! The technology that exists today would certainly make it possible.
It might even explain all the crazy, paranormal things going on today. Even the BEK (Black-eyed kids) phenomenon, that has puzzled me greatly.
It would explain all the latest massive increase in UFO sightings. Every day there are new sky...things... They don't look like UFO's are supposed to look at all any more. Just strange light anomalies.
May be worth keeping Bluebeam in mind in the future. Not be overwhelmed by things....

Multiverse

I read an intriguing article today about a woman who woke up in another universe- this one. She claimed that almost everything was the same as it was the day before, except for a few inexplicable things.
She still lived in the same home she has been living in for the last 7 years. Only her bed linen seemed unfamiliar.
Her car was still parked in the same spot as where she usually parks it. Her job is still with the same company as she has worked with for a decade.
However, the department she works for is now in a different part of the building.


Even more shocking was the fact that her new boyfriend of four months no longer exists! No one by his name exists, he doesn't work or live where he used to, there's no record of him or his son ever having existed.
And even more annoying, her old boyfriend of seven years is still in the picture, just as if they never broke up in this reality! How horrible!!!


The strangest thing about this story is that according to the well educated woman, with no history of mental problems, this change wasn't because of some time slip event. According to the woman, the day she woke up in a different reality was simply the day after she went to bed in the old one. Year and date hadn't changed, and there were no major differences between the two realities. Well, except for the disappearance of the new beau and the return of the ex!


The article also mentions a case where a man appeared on a flight arriving in Tokyo airport in the early 90's. The man was detained at the airport when it was discovered that his passport had been issued by a non-existent country.
The man was angry and shocked and was convinced he was the target of some massive practical joke!
He claimed his European country had existed for over a thousand years. The caucasian man carried many legal European currencies, had an international driver's license and spoke several languages.
Finally some government officials took pity on him and put him up in a hotel room. Guards were posted at the door and the hotel room window had no ledge outside and was 15 stories above a busy downtown street.
Yet, the next morning the man was gone, never to be found again.


So what are these stories really about? Are we living in a multiverse? Are we randomly being transported from one to the other?
In the field of quantum physics some theorize that a universe is like an infinite bubble birthing new universes- new limitless bubbles, and time doesn't exist. Everything is just an eternity of NOW.
Yeah.... I can totally grasp the concept of that................ NOT!
But I like to torment my brain by thinking about it sometimes.


In my life I know of a few instances when reality has changed in a small way from one day to the next. Like I hear of a celebrity dying, who I'm conviced has been dead for a while already. But no one remembers that but me.
Or sometimes everyone seems to have a very strong opinion about a particular subject,and you've never heard anyone have any kind of opinion on that subject before!
I've been calling these things "reality updates" and for some reason I didn't get one. At least not at those times.
Interesting anyway. Very possibly many puzzle pieces here!

The pledge

When I was around 4-5 I realized I felt like my parent's parent. My priorities were so clear, I had to protect them no matter what since they were so young.
Seems like a strange thing to think when you are 4-5, but I think what I meant was that to me they seemed to be younger souls.
I have always resisted being controlled in any way, fiercly resisted it! Raising me was no easy task, I'm sure, but the reason I wouldn't be told what to do, what was right and what was wrong, was because I already knew! Better than the  poor people who strived to raise me!
I was never that kid who had to be told not to burn flies with a magnifying glass, not to pull the legs off of spiders and such. It was never in me to hurt a living thing, especially not an animal!
My values have changed very little since I was a child. I still know right from wrong, good from evil, and most importantly, I choose good!
This doesn't mean that I've been a saint all my life, oh no no no.... I've had my rebellious stage when I drank and got into fights and was about as wild and unruly as anyone could be. I had tons of aggression I had to get out, and I did, on anyone that wasn't my friend basically.
But that was sort of a tunnel I had to get through to arrive on the other side. They were experiences I needed, puzzle pieces.
Now I'm here. I'm me. And as hard as that can be at times, it also totally rocks!
I love who I am and I'm proud to be me!

I feel somehow that I took a pledge before I was born.
Some people believe we all sign a contract before we enter this earthly realm, and I'm pretty sure I did.
It has always been so clear to me what I'm supposed to do here. I'm supposed to be doing good.
Sounds lame? Well, I don't mean that I'm supposed to sit on a meadow and play the lute and think happy thoughts! I'm me, the fierce scorpio! I have passion in everything I do! I'm hotheaded and intense and can be quite scary when I want to be. I have ridiculous integrity. Oh, and I'm freakishly strong.
So there must be a reason for that? I must have been made in the exact way I was to be able to do the things I was supposed to do, right?
I just don't believe in coincidences too much.

I'm no leader. But I'm DEFINITELY not a follower either.
I'm a loner. A grumpy, but good hearted loner who wants to help, almost no matter how much it will cost me.
That, I believe, is what I'm supposed to do. Help, and possibly share some puzzle pieces along the way.
I'm not expecting to be praised in any way. My ways are to weird for most people to even see what I'm about, to see ME, but as long as someone is helped, it is all worth it!